I've had difficulty writing lately, despite my interest in coming back to LJ. When did I become so closed up? Everything I write seems to be private or heavily filtered in my sex or religion filters. I feel like I have a secret that I'm trying to suppress and locked up in my heart.
I feel vulnerable and out of control and it was a risk I took knowing full well the outcome. So the silence is partically to help me do damage control of my own actions and for the blow to my ego that might very well follow in the following weeks/months. Sorry to be vague .. this is my cry for help .. ::laughs::
The more I write the more obscure and twisty it gets. I realized something last night that shocked me. That's all.
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